Hello.

i don’t even know what to say to myself anymore. all i seem to do lately is fuck things up, try to fix them and then fuck them up even more. all i want is for me and you to take some time to talk to eachother but only when we’re both sober. you honestly mean more to me now knowing i can never have you back then you ever had before. i’m so sorry for fucking you over and i know you will never be able to forget this. my feelings for you will always stay the same. you’ve helped me learn how to become a better person and to think about things before i actually do them. i love you always and hope we can be friends.

So, pretty much my life has gone from bad to worse in the matter of 2 weeks. I don’t even know where to start. You don’t even want to talk to me all because of my stupid mistakes that i can never take back. I understand why you never want to talk to me anymore and think i’m a stupid bitch but i really wish you would just give time to talk this out with you. You know how much i love you and i know you love me too, we both care alot about eachother and to know that nothing will ever become of us again really hurts. It’s all my fault and I take it all back i should have never hooked up with that kid at that party after we broke up and i should have never had sex with the other kid just because i thought it wouldn’t matter and you wouldn’t find out. I should’ve thought about your feelings first before I did anything but I didn’t and there’s no way I can take it back now. I just wish that you could understand how much i truly care about you, we’ve been through so much together and i can’t imagine not having you a part of my life anymore, not even to be friends. It hurts so much to think about those things you said to me because i don’t want to believe it but now i know how stupid i am and I learned from that but that will never make a difference between you and me. I just want you to know I’ll always love you and I’m always here for you.